Making progress - one tiny step at a time

Time is draining, like quicksand through one of those little hour-glasses that come with some board games. Really, there is this urgency to do. To do all that needs to be done. The list goes on as time runs out. I keep thinking each day that I’ll finish off this tonight or I’ll read that chapter in the morning, I keep telling myself that I will FOCUS today. But each day is the same. The day ends and I am left disappointed. At 9pm I am exhausted. I wonder, where is my motivation, stamina, determination and persistence? All those ingredients that one needs to get through this LIFE. I remember I used to have it. I used to be able to get through anything. Now, I find myself looking for that ‘easy way out’....and I am appalled. I look around me and the self doubts set in. All those words forcefully stashed away somewhere in my brain, come crashing back. Energy is like time. I feel like I have lost so much of it. Then whenever I go ‘home’, I remember why...and how I’ve lost it. It’s that natural tendency to be negative, what I can do? It’s in my genes. See, how I make excuses. Unbelievable! So I will keep telling myself that mantra, ‘I am making progress’ – though it maybe tiny little sluggish steps, they still count. I must remember that.